no one answered the phone

I hope he will call me sometimes,but actually he didn't
Sometimes I tried to call him,but no one answered the phone
I wander what he looks like now,but I don't have a new picture
I want to see him by webcam,but he is not on line.

I wanted to tell him I quited that tired job,maybe he hasn't read my blog.
I felt I am silly,no one i can talk with,no one i can touch,even when i was down,no one said"don't be sad,i am here with you.
One day, i had a nightmare,I was walking in darkness,the road was empty,no one there,even I wasn't in dangour,and I wasn't scare but lonely, I just kept walking ahead,even i didn't know where it's and what's going on.

I am great I have holidays during the spring festival,but that means I have a lot of time to thinking more.If I was busy on working,the lonely feeling wouldn't stronger than now,and I wouldn't have time on thinking something.

My relative are kind,they thought I should meet more guys,and asked me to meet their single friend.I met one last summer,I did bcz they insisted, I was cool,speakless on that day,just paid my attention on the food.After the first met,he messaged me a lot,even my relative told him "he is not the tea of my cup".he asked me go out with him,but i refused,bcz I was busy and i didn't want to go out with him.But don't worry,he is going to leave to another city.Last week,my relative wanted to asked me meet another guy,but i said I have to work,and i was not interesting.

I really need a man to care about me,give me a hug when I am sick or I am sad.What a poor nicole!